SAND TIMER

are you a bird now?

I forget

did you wear glasses all the time or just some of the time?

I forget

were you still around when we moved into this house?

I forget

did you like olives?

I forget

was it the 25th or the 26th?

I forget

I can’t remember your voice or how many freckles you had on your left hand I can’t remember if you were my height or just a tiny bit taller I can’t remember if you liked swimming or if you ever went to Bruge I can’t remember what song was playing when you picked me up and we drove into town I can’t remember why you thought Quavers were tacky I can’t remember if gave this to you or you gave this to me.

I’ll never know if you ever shat yourself. I’ll never know if you had secret ambitions to get really good at darts in your retirement. I’ll never know how it would feel to wash your back in a walk-in shower. I’ll never know why you preferred the big Sainsbury’s. I’ll never know who it was that said you were no good. I’ll never know where you went on your summer holiday when you were 12.

you’re unavailable to me

I cannot find the parts of you I never noticed

you are a dream to me now and so

I do not know if you have a beard

do you have a beard?

are you a bird now?

I forget